A good friend of mine
invited me to attend a Tarot Card reading. Both of us shared our
experiences together. It was a great reading. The cards for the both
of us aligned perfectly onto how our lives are right now. I will just
write about my personal experience. As you know (or can tell) I have
been struggling with writing. I think it's because lately I've been
consumed with some negative enlightenment's in our life that is
beyond my control. And if we know anything about control, we
don't have any. So this Tarot Card reading couldn't have come at a
better time. My first card that was laid was an upside down naked
woman. Normally this card would represent a prideful woman. However
in my case, I was upside down. Completely how I have been feeling
these days. My existence is a homemaker. I breathe raising my family.
I home school. In my past I was a supervisor at our local restaurant,
weekly I looked after an elderly man. I was a first aider at our
local mountain. I was always avidly working and supporting outside
our home. First off I'm not complaining. I love my life, and my
family. However ( within my Tarot Card reading) I as an individual
have indeed lost myself. Can I be that proud naked woman standing
upright confident within herself solely being a home maker? When
people ask me what I do...I always say quietly, “I'm a stay at home
mom, I home school” I personally need a different answer. My Tarot
Card reading was bang on. I need adventure. I need change. I need
something significant for me. To uplift who I am as a woman. Not just
that house wife raising children while becoming a shadow in our
world. That's not just me. I'm not just that house wife shadow.
Funny....I do write about this all the time. That's probably why I
write about it, because I know what I need, I know that action is key
to any ones success. I can write about this over and over again but I
will still remain that upside down naked woman. In the middle of my
Tarot Card reading was acknowledgment. Acknowledging that I do indeed
need to make some changes for myself with the support of this king. A
king card presented itself. That was my husband. I told the Tarot
reader that my husband is my supporter, and that we believe in having
individual dreams. So with knowing it, but not really addressing it
with actions – I still know what I need to do. Turning that knowing into realities. See I can still conquer this house wife life but
to truly become that confident proud standing straight up naked
woman, I need to enhance myself. I need to release all negatives, all
judgments and to believe and openly be proud of who I am. At the end
of the reading (within my future) there I was. I was making it
happen. Concluding, I was pursuing a possible career in counseling
for the Ministry, and or both, I was signing up for that journalism
course I've written previously about. I was making steps to go over
and lend my services to the Country of Nepal. (A place I have been
saving, dreaming and learning about for over a decade) I don't want
to be that upside down broken woman. I don't want to be that
hypocrite writer that advocates taking action when I can't take
action for myself. I preach to my children all the time to do what
makes you happy, take those steps.....I personally haven't because I'm that confined house wife and mother. I write my dreams while teaching my
children to take theirs. It's time. It's my time. It's my Kings time.
We can do everything and anything if we set our minds to it. So thank
you to my good friend. She treated me to a reading that could
possibly finally change my life, and teach what I preach to our
children, to live, experience and take actions to make yourself
happy. To be proud of yourself. I can't be
my childrens' teacher if I don't start with myself. I'm not just that upside down naked woman......
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